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Hey,
Jjust need to vent a little, and thought I'd do it here. My prep started out just like most students would, with a Kaplan course and plan in mind. I initially was really optimistic but slowly that faded. I'm kind of ashamed to think of how much time I wasted, even though I haven't really done much but stayed in my room.
Some days would be great and then all of a sudden I'd get really depressed, feeling like my life has been going nowhere, and not be able to focus. Haven't really socialized and/or kept in touch with people I know so don't really have too many friends at the moment either (I pushed away potential friends because thought they would be distractions).
My love life is nonexistent and it doesn't help that my mom keeps reminding me that she wants to be to be "settled down" and that I'm getting old. I'm 24, feeling like I'm 60. It also is depressing when you're constantly reminded how long its been since I started studying. My anxiety levels have been really through the roof because of the feeling that everyone is waiting on me to take this exam. Thus the reason why I have been avoiding people such as my family (grandparents, cousins, etc).
I've postponed my exam a couple times already, and each time I feel awful. I've realized the main challenge of studying for this exam not only includes understanding and retaining info but also being able to focus for long hours and keep away from the world (aka distractions). My exam is now in December and I still feel like I'll never be ready for it. I want to do well but all these negative thoughts are clouding my mind. Maybe anyone else is feeling the same way..
I just feel really really alone right now.
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Hi Sam,

I'm sorry to hear about what you're going through...I do understand what you mean though, I have my days when I feel like crap. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and feel like a 50 year old (I'm 25 btw), I feel like I'm getting old, ugly, I don't get much exercise, I'm so pale, I haven't left my house in exactly 7 days (that's a record for an ex-outdoor yoga instructor like me).
You are not alone. I've had a very unproductive day today...with barely 30 mins of studying. and sometimes it doesn't help that your other classmates are taking the test in a few weeks and you're nowhere close to being done with Kaplan LN for the first time. ugh. I just want you to know that you shouldn't give up....there's life after the usmle, there's opportunities, future. You're only 24, that's not old at all. You have your whole life ahead of you, your love life can be put on hold for another month or so. Right now, you have to focus on passing this test.

Cheer up, you're not alone.

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Hi Sam,

Just wanted to tell you not to worry. We all have days when we feel really down. I've gone for long periods without studying and it does stress one out, especially if you're all by yourself in your room and haven't been very productive for days. Try and put a week of hard work (six to ten hour focused days) together and that might give you back the confidence. It won't be easy to get starting but at least you'll be getting something done everyday. Try and get those lousy thoughts out of your mind. We all have them but we need to learn to keep them at bay. If you feel you're burnt out, go running maybe? But make sure you try and study after you get back. Like I said, put in those few hours of studying everyday. You'll do fine. Just keep believing and trust yourself.

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Hello!

i don know about everybody but since a week , i have been feeling the same way and more over to add to my problems and stress i am not feeling well also ....i am far away from my parents too !
so, may be just go out for a day and eat some good food or do whatever makes u happy and get back to studies again. It really helps u !
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I am right there with you brother. For the past 2 weeks haven't really studied at all. I been trying to go thru uworld. Its taking long, and getting low averages on those test aren't helping either. I am demotivated aswell. I just keep going. There is no way to turn back. We have made it this far, and we'll pass this test. Just keep at it. Think about the time, after your step. And the time after you get the results saying that you passed! Brother thats going to be one heck of a day. So hang in there. And keep on pushing.
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Just have a look at this once...Dont worry we all are in the same boat,Insha'ALLAh we'll be victorious

I need motivation to continue
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Thanks everyone for the encouraging words and understanding the realism of this. We just have to keep pushing and stay mentally strong. It's a struggle, a different kind of struggle, but just like all that we've faced, we'll get through this too.
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Hey,
Jjust need to vent a little, and thought I'd do it here. My prep started out just like most students would, with a Kaplan course and plan in mind. I initially was really optimistic but slowly that faded. I'm kind of ashamed to think of how much time I wasted, even though I haven't really done much but stayed in my room.
Some days would be great and then all of a sudden I'd get really depressed, feeling like my life has been going nowhere, and not be able to focus. Haven't really socialized and/or kept in touch with people I know so don't really have too many friends at the moment either (I pushed away potential friends because thought they would be distractions).
My love life is nonexistent and it doesn't help that my mom keeps reminding me that she wants to be to be "settled down" and that I'm getting old. I'm 24, feeling like I'm 60. It also is depressing when you're constantly reminded how long its been since I started studying. My anxiety levels have been really through the roof because of the feeling that everyone is waiting on me to take this exam. Thus the reason why I have been avoiding people such as my family (grandparents, cousins, etc).
I've postponed my exam a couple times already, and each time I feel awful. I've realized the main challenge of studying for this exam not only includes understanding and retaining info but also being able to focus for long hours and keep away from the world (aka distractions). My exam is now in December and I still feel like I'll never be ready for it. I want to do well but all these negative thoughts are clouding my mind. Maybe anyone else is feeling the same way..
I just feel really really alone right now.
Creepy how your entire story, your description of yourself, your age matches me 100% lol. Just hang in there man. This test is very much doable. Eventually you'll start seeing patterns, and high yield facts will start repeating themselves in different sources and get stuck in your long term memory. For example, you get a question which tests a concept, and then you see that concept in the explanation of another question, and then you see that same fact in first aid.

I would highly recommend that you get a little bit of physical activity every day(15-20 minutes) and have one day a week where you just play sports with your friends/family for example basketball,football, tennis, etc. It really makes a difference and takes away the depression for the entire week.
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