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I'm sorry for bothering you. I’m so ashamed to write my problem here but I'm in a serious problem here and I really need your help.
I graduated 3 years ago. Once I graduated I decided to take the USMLE exams. I registered for step1 for the first time in 2009. At the time I lost the girlfriend. I went through a very hard time. I couldn't study at all, my condition was deteriorating day after day. I was diagnosed with a major depression.

I couldn't be ready for the exam even after asking for extension the eligibility period so I lost my fees without taking the exam.

I registered for the exam again in 2010 but nothing has changed regarding my mental health nor preparation for the exam. Asked extension again and now I may lose the fee again. The extension will end by end of April. I’m still not ready but thanks God my mental health is improving, I finally overcome the graving thing.

Now, I'm so confused, what if I canceled my exam for the second time and register for the 3rd time, Would they allow me to do that?

The money is not a problem for me, I can work for it All I think about it now is my career. I’ve wasted too much time. I’ve lost my girlfriend, my friends even my family I live alone now. I’ve haven’t work for a single day as a doctor since I graduated, I want that so bad.

Please help me
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It sounds like you've been through some really tough times, but it's good that you now think your mental health is improving. Your health is the most important thing, so definitely make sure you take some time to take care of you. April is almost here so that sounds like a short time; how much prep have you done so far? What materials are you using? Have you taken a NBME exam as yet? If you post some more about your prep so far, forum members and staff may be better able to help you. Good luck with everything!
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hey friend. i relly feel for you. I know exactly what you are talking about. I myself have my exam May 2nd and 2 weeks ago my wife who is going through depression and stress says she is fed up with medicine and how it kept her families dreams on hold. we are not having kids yet because of my exams and residency. she just from nowhere said she wants divorce. Well it was a difficult task but i confinced her that she is not in the right mind to be asking me this when she is so depressed and that she will regret therefore I wont take her serious and give her few weeks to think about it. I told her I love her so much and she finally said she will stay. Man for 1 week I coulnt study. At one point I thought she was doing this just the right time to make me fail the exam so thatI can stop chasing my dream. At once I thought about divorcing her then I said to myself she is not in her right mind so treat her like a mental person who their demands shouldnt be judged. anways i know what you went through my friend stay strong, just remember you came this world alone and you will leave alone so dont get suprised in between if you are alone. Just focus on your needs people can be so brutal. about your exam give yourself plenty of time to prep because of your difficulties< you may need more time to recover. why dont you tell us how much you covered and we will guide you. remember i didnt gve the exam so take whatever I said with grain of salt. gl you will be fine just keep marching friend. we are here for you.
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It sounds like you've been through some really tough times, but it's good that you now think your mental health is improving. Your health is the most important thing, so definitely make sure you take some time to take care of you. April is almost here so that sounds like a short time; how much prep have you done so far? What materials are you using? Have you taken a NBME exam as yet? If you post some more about your prep so far, forum members and staff may be better able to help you. Good luck with everything!

Hey friend , Thank you for your support.It's been 2 years since i started studying . It was an ON-Off studying so i almost read everything from kaplan and Rapid Review pathology but i cannot remember anything from that.I haven't taken any NBME yet . i did a little from UW.
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hey friend. i relly feel for you. I know exactly what you are talking about. I myself have my exam May 2nd and 2 weeks ago my wife who is going through depression and stress says she is fed up with medicine and how it kept her families dreams on hold. we are not having kids yet because of my exams and residency. she just from nowhere said she wants divorce. Well it was a difficult task but i confinced her that she is not in the right mind to be asking me this when she is so depressed and that she will regret therefore I wont take her serious and give her few weeks to think about it. I told her I love her so much and she finally said she will stay. Man for 1 week I coulnt study. At one point I thought she was doing this just the right time to make me fail the exam so thatI can stop chasing my dream. At once I thought about divorcing her then I said to myself she is not in her right mind so treat her like a mental person who their demands shouldnt be judged. anways i know what you went through my friend stay strong, just remember you came this world alone and you will leave alone so dont get suprised in between if you are alone. Just focus on your needs people can be so brutal. about your exam give yourself plenty of time to prep because of your difficulties< you may need more time to recover. why dont you tell us how much you covered and we will guide you. remember i didnt gve the exam so take whatever I said with grain of salt. gl you will be fine just keep marching friend. we are here for you.
Hello bro

I can feel what you went through .I've suffered from the family pressure a lot .I always tried to please my father in the expense of my happiness.Finally,I just gave up , I still love him a lot but the only one i'm thinking about now is myself.
My family doesn't know that I'm ( officially ) depressed and was thinking of suicide so they just think that I am a loser.Nobody has told me that verbally but i can feel it.

I wish you the best.
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hey buddy....i want u to know that u r definately not alone in this...there is nothing to be ashamed of....we all go through hard times..it is times like these that make u stronger...always believe that there will be better days. Keep the faith, that's the most important thing...it is hard to concentrate and sometimes we all feel like giving up, it is an uphill battle but it will be worth it in the end....good luck
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your post is old I don't know if you see this, but believe me if i tell you my situation you know you are OK. It's two years take heart and work hard to pass your exams so that you can be able to save the lives of others.
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I'm having a similar issue and I'm not sure who i can talk to, if anybody... and i've come to the point where i'm ready to quit... even though i dont want to... i've run out of ideas , solutions, and am just getting frustrated.

I apologize if this is the wrong place to make this post, but I am not sure where else to turn to, so I have started to turn to the forums.

If anybody could PM me if they have time maybe they can help me get a different perspective.

Thanks for whoever can respond.
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I'm having a similar issue and I'm not sure who i can talk to, if anybody... and i've come to the point where i'm ready to quit... even though i dont want to... i've run out of ideas , solutions, and am just getting frustrated.

I apologize if this is the wrong place to make this post, but I am not sure where else to turn to, so I have started to turn to the forums.

If anybody could PM me if they have time maybe they can help me get a different perspective.

Thanks for whoever can respond.
Well you turned to a good place. Forums are really good. In my opinion, even better than the outside world, because we all have a major thing in common- USMLE.

Hang in there. IDK what difficulties you're going through, but I can tell you that I have been through downs also in during my prep and all I want is to get it over and put it behind me, for if something tough were to happen again, I can face it without the stress of boards and residency.

You're not the first, you're not the last. Make a plan and stick to it.

Hang out a little more in the forum here. You'll meet a lot of nice people wanting to help you out with any question that you may have. Read the recommended threads for a boost.

Best of luck to you. Remember, God will never give you more than you can handle.
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Well you turned to a good place. Forums are really good. In my opinion, even better than the outside world, because we all have a major thing in common- USMLE.

Hang in there. IDK what difficulties you're going through, but I can tell you that I have been through downs also in during my prep and all I want is to get it over and put it behind me, for if something tough were to happen again, I can face it without the stress of boards and residency.

You're not the first, you're not the last. Make a plan and stick to it.

Hang out a little more in the forum here. You'll meet a lot of nice people wanting to help you out with any question that you may have. Read the recommended threads for a boost.

Best of luck to you. Remember, God will never give you more than you can handle.
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gud morning..i m new to this forum..got little bit of confidence after reading posts here..i graduated 5 yrs ago.working in a hospital..worked hard in these 5yrs to clear my dad's bank dues..can i still have a chance to make residency?..now started my preparation wit kaplan notes,1st aid,UW..advice me pls..i m very much confident in scoring good marks,for that i can work out whatever it takes to achieve ..
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I'm having a similar issue and I'm not sure who i can talk to, if anybody... and i've come to the point where i'm ready to quit... even though i dont want to... i've run out of ideas , solutions, and am just getting frustrated.

I apologize if this is the wrong place to make this post, but I am not sure where else to turn to, so I have started to turn to the forums.

If anybody could PM me if they have time maybe they can help me get a different perspective.

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hi friend,
i m just 2min old to this forum..pls don t quit..u might be in penultimate step to enter in to a new phase of ur career..i graduted 5 yrs ago..still want to make residency..we people ve to encourage each other to ace de exams..thanks..,
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gud morning..i m new to this forum..got little bit of confidence after reading posts here..i graduated 5 yrs ago.working in a hospital..worked hard in these 5yrs to clear my dad's bank dues..can i still have a chance to make residency?..now started my preparation wit kaplan notes,1st aid,UW..advice me pls..i m very much confident in scoring good marks,for that i can work out whatever it takes to achieve ..
Of course you have a chance to make residency. There are many old-IMG (10+ years) that have successfully entered residency. I've read and know about many success stories.

What's important to know is that anything you have to your disadvantage (i.e., visa issues, IMG, old graduate, low USMLE scores, no USCE, etc.) you can make it up with USMLE scores, research, good letters of recommendation, etc.

The best thing you have is your confidence. Never have that knocked down. You started on the right foot. Continue on with kaplan, FA, Goljan, UWorld and the rest of the high yield material. If you feel you lack knowledge in something or have forgotten about yet other things, then go back to the big books.

Stick to your resources, have a plan and know that reading things multiple times makes sense out of even the most complicated things.

Good luck pal...
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Of course you have a chance to make residency. There are many old-IMG (10+ years) that have successfully entered residency. I've read and know about many success stories.

What's important to know is that anything you have to your disadvantage (i.e., visa issues, IMG, old graduate, low USMLE scores, no USCE, etc.) you can make it up with USMLE scores, research, good letters of recommendation, etc.

The best thing you have is your confidence. Never have that knocked down. You started on the right foot. Continue on with kaplan, FA, Goljan, UWorld and the rest of the high yield material. If you feel you lack knowledge in something or have forgotten about yet other things, then go back to the big books.

Stick to your resources, have a plan and know that reading things multiple times makes sense out of even the most complicated things.

Good luck pal...
Thanks for motivating response..needed ur precious advice to ace the exam ..pls provide updates regarding subjects,effective way of preparation,matching (in ur free time)..once again thank u very much..
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hi i am new in this forum, and the only reason i turned to the forum was that i needed support, and help with many topics. as of this thread i must say you are not alone...almost all of us suffer in our lives one way or the other.
i graduated 5 years back , at that time i bought kaplans, and all i wanted was to give steps, but unfortunatly i went through a great tagedy n was in depression for two years. then i started working again as a doctor, and after an year i could feel the pulse of my dream again. so i worked hard, collected money and now i am going to appear in step 1 in december.
ofcourse its hard to go back to basic sciences after such long break but nothing is impossible. first reading is a bit difficult in this case but not the revisions. and its only with revisions we can understand,remember n reproduce ideas in the exam.
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I'm having a similar issue and I'm not sure who i can talk to, if anybody... and i've come to the point where i'm ready to quit... even though i dont want to... i've run out of ideas , solutions, and am just getting frustrated.

I apologize if this is the wrong place to make this post, but I am not sure where else to turn to, so I have started to turn to the forums.

If anybody could PM me if they have time maybe they can help me get a different perspective.

Thanks for whoever can respond.
listen, everbody has issues but till the day you are alive you have to deal with them. its only you and your persistance that can help u achieve your dreams.
i am working as a doctor and i have a very tough schedual but going for steps and residency is something i truly want, so i have to take time out for it, i have to give up on my sleep n fun, but isn't it something worthwhile?
if you REALLY want it you have to push yourself.i am pretty hopeful for my future no matter how hard a time i am going through. Remember:
WINNERS DONT QUIT AND QUITTERS DONT WIN!
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hi friend,
i m just 2min old to this forum..pls don t quit..u might be in penultimate step to enter in to a new phase of ur career..i graduted 5 yrs ago..still want to make residency..we people ve to encourage each other to ace de exams..thanks..,
I will not quit. I am just struggling alot and not sure what to do.

I managed to find a study partner in my area. After one meeting the person never contacted me back.

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listen, everbody has issues but till the day you are alive you have to deal with them. its only you and your persistance that can help u achieve your dreams.
i am working as a doctor and i have a very tough schedual but going for steps and residency is something i truly want, so i have to take time out for it, i have to give up on my sleep n fun, but isn't it something worthwhile?
if you REALLY want it you have to push yourself.i am pretty hopeful for my future no matter how hard a time i am going through. Remember:
WINNERS DONT QUIT AND QUITTERS DONT WIN!
Congrats to you.

Im still studying for step 1. I have my eligibility period for march-april-may. I have not gotten ECFMG confirmation yet.

however my basic sciences were not so great and my active recall is poor so i make stupid mistakes and second guess myself ALOT.

i did uworld and i changed alot of questions from right to wrong because i second guessed. sometimes i just dont recall the fact - its almost like when i read it doesnt register but if i discuss it registers. i wish i knew what to do because my method does not seem to be working.

i have less than 2 months. i have not completed alot of resources, PROPERLY or throughly, thus lack confidence.

and now because of time constraint and other issues, i dont know what to do. procrastination at its worst - thats how i can summarize it.
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I will not quit. I am just struggling alot and not sure what to do.

I managed to find a study partner in my area. After one meeting the person never contacted me back.



Congrats to you.

Im still studying for step 1. I have my eligibility period for march-april-may. I have not gotten ECFMG confirmation yet.

however my basic sciences were not so great and my active recall is poor so i make stupid mistakes and second guess myself ALOT.

i did uworld and i changed alot of questions from right to wrong because i second guessed. sometimes i just dont recall the fact - its almost like when i read it doesnt register but if i discuss it registers. i wish i knew what to do because my method does not seem to be working.

i have less than 2 months. i have not completed alot of resources, PROPERLY or throughly, thus lack confidence.

and now because of time constraint and other issues, i dont know what to do. procrastination at its worst - thats how i can summarize it.

Hi!
Just keep studying and doing questions. You will be fine. Try to take an NBME and see how you are doing. If u havent done kaplan q bank then try doing that. I do the samething as you (second guess myself all the time). Kaplan Qbank shows for how many questions you went frm correct to incorrect and the other way around. That has showed me to not change my answers alot..
I would say DONT CHANGE UR ANSWER until you are sure of the 2nd answer! Your first instincts are mostly correct!
Good luck!
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This forum is a great place to get support, also to actually see that others experience some of the same issues!

Depression is really hard coping with, and from own experience I know it takes time... to much time (think most would agree) to get back into fully functioning again. As depression hits us rl hard it is not easy to focus and keep the mind where we want it to be.

In one way I have been fortunate, I have a sister which has gone through her hard issues as well, we meet and work out together, for us - this has been the greatest of therapy. Doing something selfish for us only. This is one of the things I will not stop doing, at times I feel I should use all time availible to study, but I know that without my work outs with my sister it is easy to fall back on bad tracks.

The hardest part is usually to find a solution, find something which helps the situation. I hope you will find your solution. For me it has been work outs. My goal now is to get my 5k under 40 min At my last try I was 30 seconds over, so I am getting there
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